Recently my baby boy has come down with a bit of a rough cough and stuffy nose. He weezes and at times sounds like he is having a heck of a time just breathing.

And all I can do is sit there and try to comfort him as he coughs and screams. I am helpless to the situation. I am helpless to his pain. I can offer a drop tylenol that does little for his cough. I am helpless to do anything. There is no medicine, there is no quick fix. There is nothing but time, the slow tick of the clock.

Completely Helpless.

And it's the worst feeling. And it's very frustrating. Because I just want him to be better, I just want to him to be okay and sleep and be happy.

This helplessness makes me wonder if I have put anyone else in this position. Sitting on the outside and wanting so badly for me to go this way but I don't. Have I made someone feel as though they were in a soundproof room screaming out to me? All they want is to help me, and my actions hurt them so deeply.

In time it all comes full circle, we eventually come around and see that those who were looking out for us really did care, really did want the best, and we may even see how helpless we made them feel. Perhaps it's finally growing up and not making stupid decisions anymore. Perhaps its making a lifestyle change.

Perhaps its having a baby and realizing how helpless you can feel at times just praying for them to get better because there is nothing you can do.

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